It sucks!

Sorry, but this is a MAJOR vent!!!!

Back in August I found myself in a MAJOR flare up, I have been in a flare up before, but nothing like this.  I was stuck in bed for about a month.  I have been able to get out of bed since the beginning of September, but I am still battling this damn flare up.  My pain level is hanging out above a 5 (and that is a good day), I am exhausted after doing a small amount of laundry.  I get the picture, I am in a flare up, but that really doesn’t help me.  I go shopping at Wal-Mart I have to rely on a stupid wheel chair just so I can be semi functional the next day. 

 If the pain weren’t enough the reminder of the upcoming iron distance triathlon is killing me. Instead of the race we are going on an amazing vacation, but I get an email from the race and it reminds me that I am broken. I know I will be up and running again soon, but that doesn’t help me right now. I SHOULD be ready to toe the line at my first iron distance; I would have reached my goal of getting my first iron distance done by this upcoming birthday, but NOOOOOOO! I had to extend that date by five years, I will get my iron distance done. Until then I have to enjoy life as a non-racer. I am working on getting time in the pool and working on walking and swimming. I can’t even consider hitting the treadmill or the elliptical machine right now. When I am finally ready to start on the long slow road to running a marathon, let along an iron man, it will take a lot of time and patients to get back to where I want. All advice will be greatly appreciated, not to mention the support not to push myself to hard!