Thursday, November 19, 2015

Runner in a Broken Body

My emotional ankle is going on three months now.  I was able to deal with no running while I was stuck in a boot but now I am at the point that it hurts if I don’t run, it hurts if I do BUT my inside hurt if I don’t run but feel better if I do (mind you my “running” lately has been 17 minute pace so it isn’t even really running).  Unfortunately, the personal trainer I have been working with is not comfortable with that answer.  Physical therapy has hit a wall (my ankle keeps getting stuck) so they sent me back to ortho who is ordering an MRI.  As much as I hate to acknowledge setbacks, my physical therapist maybe might have a point and I need to find another method to feeling better on the inside.  One thing he recommended is boxing, which I do quite enjoy.  Today I was supposed to go for a run, but trying to listen to everyone I took my training to the pool.  For the past… week, my pleurisy has been acting up, nothing new, I am used to it and I have learned to deal with it quite well.  I did a gentle warm-up and then for the main part of my workout I used my snorkel without the airflow restrictor on.  I figured it would be a play it by ear swim, no equipment (excluding the snorkel) and just flat out enjoyed the water. 
As much as I hate to admit it, I am well aware of the fact that I must give my body time to heal and with lupus it can take longer than “normal”.  I had planned on running a half marathon every month in 2016 but silly me, I did not clear that plan with my dear friend lupus so that plan has gone out the window.  I might need regular reminders that this is for the best because, knowing me, I am going to fight it every step of the way.  Hopefully once I put the gloves back on I will be able to be distracted long enough to heal. 
I am signed up for two 5ks between now and the end of the year and I will do my very best to walk the course and just enjoy life!



Permanence, perseverance and persistence in spite of all obstacles, discouragements, and impossibilities: It is this, that in all things distinguishes the strong soul from the weak.
–Thomas Carlyle

1 comment:

  1. You've Got This!! It's going to be ok. Remember why you started running...for real running when things brought a smile to your face...and focus in on that. It's all about being healthy inside and out. You've accomplished so much and have so many adventures ahead of you. It's ok to slow down, appreciate your surroundings, regroup and move forward with what will work best to bring you to your happy place today.

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